Monday, August 20, 2012

Do you wish you could really be seen?

Have you ever found yourself the object of attention, someone's ideal but they don't see you at all.  All they really see is the outside, they can't seem to get past the face, the eyes, the mouth, the body.  What they like are your looks and honestly don't care about anything else.  They seem to worship your body, dream of conquering you.  Oh, and never forget the entire time they are telling you how much they care and love you.  How they lie and twist your feelings by telling you what they think you want to hear.  They play on your insecurities making you think you can't live without them, using up your emotions and spitting them out.  Never truly getting to know the real you.  You know the one that is inside, yearning to be taken for more than granted.

Now, when you are young you might think that this type of behavior is fun, that you are wanted, loved and even cared for, but what happens when you are all used up and kicked to the side, replaced with someone younger than you, but as cute as you used to be?  Though it maybe cool for a little while to have others stop and stare, but it will get old in the end there is so much more than being shallow.  You must realize that they have no intention of ever getting to know you, they only want your body.  They only see the physical and dismiss the intellectual.  I know how lonely that can be! I know how you long to be seen as a whole mind, body and soul.  I want you to know my friend you may feel alone and lost seeking love.  Have patience and faith your match will come someday at last. Surround yourself with true friends, the ones who look within and see the person and potential you have.

Open your eyes to those around you who really know you, you may just find your love among them.  They have seen you at your worst and at your best and love you none the less.  Dare to be different and look inside of everyone you meet.  See their courage, talent and potential, get past that exterior mask they wear, especially if you want something that lasts.  Tear down the walls and the masks dare to love the one inside, force it into the light so it can't hide.  Honestly no one likes to be looked at as a conquest or piece of meat.

I hope this poem opens up and expresses what I am trying to say.

When people look at me what do they see?
Do they look beyond my face, eyes and smile?
Why do they only see the body dreaming of what might be.

But they don't know me.

They judge my words and deeds,
But never ever take the chance to see.
Fawning and pawing trying to get to me.

But they don't know me.

Fluttering and chivying, vieing for a place
But all they could see is just my body and my face
Lying cheating trying to seduce

But they don't know me.

Words of lies are aimed to disarm, claiming to care
it is just the mask they wear.
They take and take and never give

But they don't know me.

Oh why won't they take the chance to look inside of me
I have a heart of gold and a love so deep.

But they don't know me.

I feel alone in a crowd
wishing you could hear my thoughts out loud.
I am more than I appear
But you have wasted your shot my dear.
You should have gotten to know me!

I am not a saint, but I am kind
I don't cheat or lie.
And do you know why?
Because I am me
a Man of Integrity.

I wrote this for me and a couple of friends who are going through this right now.  I know how it hard it is too find love and acceptance, and to be lusted after with a vengeance.  Take heart, your true love is out there and when you find them you'll never part.

As always my hopes and dreams are with you,

Uncle B