Dare to Dream Make it Happen

Earlier today I posted an entry about fear, I gave a very simple plan to overcome and face that fear.  A way in which we can eliminate some of the risk and weigh the consequences to sway our decision making process.  But, there is something else that I would like to talk to you about.  Dare to dream, because we live in a world today that makes it possible for us to attain our dreams, if we just apply ourselves.  Make every decision with the goal of your dream firmly ahead of you.

Dreams are a wonderful thing, they can propel us to be better than ourselves.  One person can change the world, one idea can spark a universe of change.  Great leaders are called to service and if you are wondering by what I mean when I say called? I am talking about sharing your passion with the world, exploring your dreams and soaring to the heights of your imagination.  Life is short and fleeting, but each of us adds our own unique signature to the world as we pass through it.  We are unique works of art and we enhance the world that knows us.

I bet the Benjamin Franklin never thought that any of his letters or works of writing would be remembered and quoted hundreds of years after his death.  He was a diplomat, inventor, writer, and many other things.  What makes us worthy of being remembered in the history books?  Will we be remembered like the President, or a famous person?  Maybe not on such a grand scale.  But I will tell you that someone in this world who has been touched by you and your life and presence  will remember you always.  Who knows my writing maybe remembered way after I have left this world. 

I have been told that my writing is simply easy to understand and extremely to the point on many issues facing those around me and who read my blog.  But, my blog for me is mainly as a coping mechanism and a place where I can purge my inner pain and issues.  I have never wanted to be famous, I just wanted to be liked and have the ability to help people who are dearly in need.  My dream has always been to leave my mark on this world by knowing that I have touched, helped, inspired as many people as I could and that they will always remember me. 

You cannot succeed in this world if you don't try and apply effort.  You will only find true happiness within yourself. Trust me when I tell you that you will only enjoy the work that you do if it is what you have a passion for.  Celebrate your talent and follow your hearts desires, you owe it to yourself to be true to your dream.  Remember, that life is but a fleeting thing and we cannot all be famous, but we all can be remembered by our friends and those that have loved us.  

As always my hopes and dreams are with you,

Uncle B

How Does Love Grow and Flow? (A Poem)

It starts out as a feeling.
Which in turn turns into a hope.
Which in turn turns into a quiet thought.
Which in turns turns into a quiet word.
That word grows louder and louder.
Until it becomes a song in my heart.
Keep in mind that Just because everything is changing.
It doesn't mean that I have felt this way before.
True love has bitten me.
That's it and nothing more.
There will never be a need to Say Good-Bye.
You were my friend before, and now you have become so much more.
Your face, your touch, your voice are deep inside of me.
Every moment that we shared has shaped me and made me whole.
Etched in Stone upon my heart these memories are meant for you and me alone.
Every song I hear brings me back to you my dear.
And stirs up those memories I keep in here!
I am who I am and nothing more.
It's your faith, trust and hope that made me yours!
Because of you I became something so much more.
You inspired me and made my spirit soar!
Through my sorrow and my pain.
You stood beside me all the same.
Even when there was nothing to gain.
You never have to worry again.
I have tasted true love!
And I'll never say Good-Bye!

You ever have a day where you just feel blue and lonely?

Even though I was busy most of the day with doctor's appointments.  I still felt the pang of loneliness and boredom set in.  Honestly, this is a very mild form of depression and one that used to come over me a lot.  But not so much anymore.  Today was just one of those days when everyone and everything just seemed to remind me how alone I am.  Everywhere I turned I saw people hurrying about their business, smiling and sharing time with others.

Since I have been in Florida, I have done nothing really except hang with my father and step mother. Now, don't get me wrong, I enjoy that for the most part.  It is just hard being here with no one to talk to, confide in or do things with.  I have tried going to the movies by myself and it just isn't the same thing.  I grew up in Orlando, went to high school in Winter Park and have some friends over there, but here in Ormond, I don't know a soul.  When I lived in Atlanta I was always on the go, hardly ever sat at home, and here I am sitting in the same room all by myself for the last 7 months.  Kind of monotonous if you ask me.

I had been hoping against hope that Bobby Ohara was going to come down, and now even that is looking more and more like a pipe dream.  My only outlet to the real world is via my cell phone or the computer. I hangout on Facebook and Myspace and twitter this is my window into reality. I write in my blog and I am constantly watching movies.  I am hoping that as soon as I get this cast off of my leg I will find something to do, because a person could really go crazy just sitting in their room all day, every day.

I do miss my friend and my life that I had in Atlanta, but I know that it wasn't good for me, and I was on a self-defeatist path as well as on a path of self-destruction while I was there.  Honestly, I know I am not going back there, but I have left behind so many interesting people and friends that it is so hard not to wonder what they are doing and wishing I was with them.  I honestly wish I could find someone to hang out with and chill here. I think that would make staying here that much more bearable and get me out of the house and the rut that I am in.  But for now, I await for the phone to ring and hear from my friends on Google talk, voice or email or sit and follow everyone's adventures on Facebook.

I know that this is only temporary and when my leg and body have healed enough I will start going out and doing things.  Might even make some friends here that will make life a little more bearable.  So keep this in mind when you are running around and doing stuff. That I am sitting here waiting to hear from you and share in your excitement and your adventures.

Life is never what it supposed to be, and we all long for differences and changes to take place to rock our world and make it more exciting.  But trust me that the grass is not always greener on the other side and if it is.  It is probably too good to be true and you just have to wait for the other shoe.  I hope you all will take the time to join my blog site and write to me.  Give me something to enjoy and write about.

I miss you all and hope to hear from you guys soon.

All my hopes and dreams are with you,

Uncle B

Trying to make sense a senseless tragedy

As the aftermath of the senseless shooting in Colorado settles down the media and the rest of us reel trying to make sense of a senseless tragedy.  We look for answers to the question, "What could have motivated and educated and smart, young man to do such a thing?"  I don't think we are ever going to figure out fully what motivated him or even drove this person do this.  I am not sure even he knows, one station said that James Holmes claimed he was the Joker when he was being arrested.

It is hard to imagine an honor's med student, opening up fire in a movie theater and killing 12 people that he didn't know, had no connection with, and then warning police that he had booby trapped his apartment and rigged it to explode when entered.  But, this is what we have a real life villain, who died his hair red to match that of the animated and on-screen villain, Joker.

I have even had texts from friends claiming that the movie franchise is cursed, that only death and tragedy follow the series.  If that is true thank goodness that this was the third and final installment of this particular dark franchise.  Now, the assertion that this franchise is cursed is based on coincidence and I honestly don't think has anything to do with the film at all.  The first was Katie Holmes marriage to Tom Cruise ended and she was in the First movie, Heath Ledger who portrayed the Joker in the second movie died of a drug over dose and the third movie twelve unsuspecting people died going to see the movie.  These and other rumors and stories are going around the world and the internet today.

It is our societies need to understand and wrap their heads around tragedies like this, our driving need to understand and comprehend why such actions were committed and how we can rationalize and justify all the deaths and murder that have occurred.  I honestly don't think that we will ever come to understand the motivations of actions like these.  They are violent, senseless, and doesn't seem to be any rationale behind the actions at all.  All the questioning of the motives, and asking James Holmes himself, direct and pointed questions are not going to reveal any real information.  As I said earlier, I don't believe he even knows or even understands what he has done, let alone will be able to explain his intentions or reasons behind this act.  I believe that his mind is trapped somewhere between reality and fantasy, and that he couldn't distinguish his acts from those on the screen.  He believed himself to be the villain Joker personified or come to life.

This tragedy could have escalated even further had the police raided his apartment and set off the traps that he had rigged for them.  According to the report I read on ABC.Com there was enough explosives in his booby trapped apartment that would have destroyed the building he lived in and severely damaged the other buildings that surround his.  More students and faculty at the University would have been killed and hurt, had he not warned the police that his apartment was rigged to explode.  Again, I don't know what could have motivated his actions, I don't understand the mind that can rationalize and discard life so easily.

I think it is hard for the rest of us to understand and comprehend his motivations as well. Though we will take the next several days and even weeks trying to sort through this mess, and make sense of the senseless.  We may never know the real truth behind this.  What was going on in his mind as he committed these acts will forever remain a mystery.  Even if he does talk how can we believe and accept what he is saying?  There is no sense in the taking a life.  There is no rationalization that can justify the behavior that was exhibited, and I don't think any for of punishment will be swift or just enough to handle a crime of this magnitude.

In my mind, this was an act of terrorism, pure and simple evil, unleashing it's deadly and frightening hatred on mankind.  It was committed by a hapless, possibly lonely individual, not by a group, or religious faction, it was committed by a smart, educated young man, who quite possibly didn't feel like he fit in anywhere.

My heart goes out to the families of the victims that lost their lives, my prayers are with those injured and in the hospital.  I also pray to the Lord for understanding in this matter, and that peace and closure can be granted those that are hurt and grieving because of this.  I wish there was some way to understand and make sense of tragedy's like this when they occur, but I don't honestly think that their is ever going to be an true understanding, we might eventually discover the motivations, and infer the rationale used to commit these crimes, and we might even one day piece together a profile for James Holmes like have been done for other serial killers and murders, but I think the true answer lies locked deep within the brain of James Holmes and will never truly be all revealed.

There is no real way for all of America to make sense of this senseless tragedy that took place in Aurora Colorado.  Please remember no matter how hard you try to understand why this happened and what could have been done to prevent it...the answer is NOTHING.  No one could have known and all that can be done is now being done.  I am sorry to say!

As always my hopes and dreams are with you,

Uncle B

Immortality, symbolic isn't it?

I have been playing around with the thought of immortality lately.  Ponce De Leon went in search of the fountain of youth, he wanted to live forever. He never found it but in a way he achieved what he was looking for.  Immortality, his name is going to live on in history for his adventure and his discoveries.  Though he was looking for a way to fend off Death, it inevitably came to claim him and he passed from our existence into the next.  Movie stars, actors and actresses, writers, singers, politicians all in their own way become immortalized. It doesn't mean that they are still alive and with us. As a matter of fact many have passed on already, but their likeness or art is with us still.  Whether locked in the written prose of words, that makes up a novel or book, or captured on celluloid which is film stock a part of them lives on in the world.  I know this isn't what people mean by living forever, but it is a form of immortality.  As long as someone somewhere remembers them, they are still with us.

Most people don't even realize that the life they are living is taking them on the path to immortality and living beyond their own lifetime.  Some don't even get recognized for their efforts until after they have passed from the mortal life, yet some type of record of their life remains.  Anne Frank was a young jewish girl whose diary has made her immortal and someone remembered in our world.  Who is to say that your life is not important?  Who can tell you that what you are doing today will not have an impact on the future that is yet to come?  None of know, because life is but a fleeting thing.  Our lives in the cosmic scale are but small blink of the eye in universal terms.

Some people go out and search for fame and fortune, others seem to be born into it.  Where we all fit in is a great mystery. What makes one person successful and another not so successful? It isn't the lack of trying or motivation.  It seems almost prearranged somehow.  If you are not born here and into this family, you are just going to be an average joe.  However, history is filled with average joe's who have made a difference and have ensured their own place of immortality.  We know and are taught that no one person is better than another, that we all enter the world the same way and leave it too.  What happens in between and the paths we choose are what divines us and gives us worth and character.  It seems so very strange to be talking about this and trying to grasp and comprehend the meaning of it all.  But one thing keeps coming to mind as I think about this.  The human body is just an elaborate machine that is run by a highly sophisticated super computer, the brain.  The body wears out over time and get tired and run down. However what runs the body is energy.

From physics we know that energy cannot be destroyed, it can only be manipulated and changed.  Therefore, I believe that there is something more to life after this shell of a body gives out. Because if energy cannot be destroyed, then the energy of the body is what gives us life, and since it cannot be destroyed it must go somewhere or be transmuted into another form.  Hence the theory of reincarnation  has come to be.  Reincarnation is the belief that when this body dies the spirit of the person is reborn into another form or person.  Meaning that the energy that is used to power this body finds a new host or place to live in and life continues in a ever widening circle.

Each of us has the potential to live forever, it is all up to us. How we live our life's and who is left behind to remember us.  Immortality doesn't mean that you are going to personally live forever, just some aspect of you will continue to exist in those that remember you.  Keep that in mind the next time you meet someone new.  You never know who meeting that person is going to affect your future and how well you are remembered by those you leave behind you.

Just something to think about and something I have been pondering on. I look forward to your comments and feedback.  Lets talk about some of the topics I write about and get a discussion and dialog going.  I hope you will join my blog and become a part of my ever increasing readership.  I want to encourage you to take the time to reach out and talk to me.  I want to hear from you.

As always my hopes and dreams are with you,

Uncle B