If only you could see the fear in my mind,
the doubt in my heart, then you might understand.
But to the world I only show a confidence and faith,
I show positive living and the light.
I have been called to use my voice to help those
who are victims of pain and strife.
But if you only knew what turmoils that
goes on sometimes inside.
I am human that is true
a war is being fought within my soul
You will never know I won't ever let it show
I walk in faith and in grace
I have been touch by the Hand of God,
I know that I am truly loved and blessed.
The Great Healer has heard all prayers
He has saved me so many times.
Now you know why I have to let my light shine.
It's my story and my song
If you only knew everything that I have been through
You would understand my faith and join in the praise
I want you to know I know what you are going through
I have been there right with you. So are the angels that protect
You will never find yourself alone or a reject
If you only knew Jesus died for you.
Then you might be in harmony
and see the light that I have inside.
If you only knew God Loves you and
So do I.
As always my hopes and dreams are with you,
Uncle B
Showing posts with label spirit. Show all posts
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Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Monday, March 23, 2015
Rainy Days and Sunshine
I have stood alone and faced the world for so long. All my worries and troubles had no one to share, so I carried my burden day after day.
Seemed like the dark clouds would pass me by, but every morning they hadn't gone. So I plodded on and on. I couldn't see what was around me because my life was shrouded in gloom. Often I would collapse at night in my room. I didn't know what was going to happen, I just knew that something had to give.
As my storm clouds circled my head, my feet kept going in circle round and round. I was doing the same things every day, no change, just the monotonous life, I was born to lead. Home, work, pay bills, eat and sleep and then start all over again.
I cannot tell you how many years have gone by locked in this endless pattern of wash, rinse and repeat. I had tried it all the drugs, the sex, the gambling, and even some dangerous stuff. There seemed to be no end to this rut I had fallen in.
Then one day you walked in, a breathe of fresh air, with that golden sunshine around you there. I blinked and stared and knew right then that you were where and what I wanted to be. I talked with you and walked with you. My grey skies and clouds were pushed aside. For in light no darkness can abide.
You were my friend, my companion, someone who was there to understand. We talked and laughed all the day through. My life had changed just because of you. But you know what is funny my dear, maybe I should whisper in your ear.
Your life was doom and gloom, before we met just as mine was. Yet, once we met I have seen nothing but blue skies and sun. My dull and boring life was now full of fun and life. I cannot tell you what you mean, you brightened my world what more can I say.
Now I wake to sunshine, you have chased my rain away. So here I have to say so long to my rainy days. It is you my friend who has brought it too and end. If you could only see what I see reflected back at me from your eyes you would be surprised.
So smart and sure, and confident you are, I envy you and wish I was more like you. You have come and left but my sunshine has remained. I can't thank you enough for bringing it to an end. Everyday I get to spend with you is so special a treat.
I pray one day that in the mirror you will see all that I can see that you can be. You need to have some faith in yourself, take your confidence and make a change. You can be so much more than your are. Though I am not sure you know who you truly are.
A friend to me is what you are, someone that I would like to be, who I wish could see the strength that I see inside of you. You do not quite yet comprehend who you will be when this journey ends. The wheel of time continued to turn and so the years went by you would come every so often into my orbit, never staying for very long.
I am older, weaker now, frail and injured weary of soul, and finally you have come. In the past I have helped a little never much because you always fled. I wanted us to be so more, but it wasn't meant to be. I am your guardian, helper, teacher, and even more important your friend. You are special to me, you came in my darkness and my stupor. You saw my aimless wandering in the gloom, you never ever knew just the impact you brought.
As I have learned as you have been gone, it was the spark of life you brought to me in my darkest hour. You rescued me. talked with me and healed me. It was you my friend that built me up again when the one before had plunged me into this deep and dank dark. You have built up my self-esteem, my confidence, and brought the sunshine back.
What can I do for you? I wish you would tell me true. I so envy you, but you are troubled and seem so alone, let me in I hate that you have had to roam so far from home to find a little bit of peace. I had promised you so long ago that I was your friend and I meant that till my end.
Do you really know and understand that you are truly my friend. A friend you see is more than just words, it is actions and deeds. When I tell you that I love you do you truly understand? Love is when you put another person needs above your own.
How can I relate to you what you truly mean? You don't even see your own self worth. I want you to stay, I want to teach you all I can, but I am not sure you understand. If you stay and learn the person you are will be changed for ever more. The more you learn the more knowledge you gain. You will learn in due time that wisdom comes from Age plus Knowledge. The path you seek is here indeed..
You chased my rainy days away filled my heart and my life full of sunshine. I have a hope an inner peace that wasn't there until I met you. Your friendship changed my life. An inner peace, an a thirst to learn. From the time I met you I have increased my knowledge 100 fold.
If you are sincere, but be aware, what I have to teach took me a lifetime to learn, you must be willing to put in the time. It will not be easy, you will want to quit, might hate me some but in the end you will have learned. I hope you can understand what all I have planned, and I hope you will stay this time.
Before now other things came in between, I don't want to let it happen again. Our time is finally at hand, what you choose to do with it is up to you. Take your time and decide, please don't turn and hide. I want this to be just for you and me.
You are once again here and I love you my friend. Remember it is till the end.
I hope you are my Best Friend
As always my hopes and dreams are with you,
Uncle B
Seemed like the dark clouds would pass me by, but every morning they hadn't gone. So I plodded on and on. I couldn't see what was around me because my life was shrouded in gloom. Often I would collapse at night in my room. I didn't know what was going to happen, I just knew that something had to give.
As my storm clouds circled my head, my feet kept going in circle round and round. I was doing the same things every day, no change, just the monotonous life, I was born to lead. Home, work, pay bills, eat and sleep and then start all over again.
I cannot tell you how many years have gone by locked in this endless pattern of wash, rinse and repeat. I had tried it all the drugs, the sex, the gambling, and even some dangerous stuff. There seemed to be no end to this rut I had fallen in.
Then one day you walked in, a breathe of fresh air, with that golden sunshine around you there. I blinked and stared and knew right then that you were where and what I wanted to be. I talked with you and walked with you. My grey skies and clouds were pushed aside. For in light no darkness can abide.
You were my friend, my companion, someone who was there to understand. We talked and laughed all the day through. My life had changed just because of you. But you know what is funny my dear, maybe I should whisper in your ear.
Your life was doom and gloom, before we met just as mine was. Yet, once we met I have seen nothing but blue skies and sun. My dull and boring life was now full of fun and life. I cannot tell you what you mean, you brightened my world what more can I say.
Now I wake to sunshine, you have chased my rain away. So here I have to say so long to my rainy days. It is you my friend who has brought it too and end. If you could only see what I see reflected back at me from your eyes you would be surprised.
So smart and sure, and confident you are, I envy you and wish I was more like you. You have come and left but my sunshine has remained. I can't thank you enough for bringing it to an end. Everyday I get to spend with you is so special a treat.
I pray one day that in the mirror you will see all that I can see that you can be. You need to have some faith in yourself, take your confidence and make a change. You can be so much more than your are. Though I am not sure you know who you truly are.
A friend to me is what you are, someone that I would like to be, who I wish could see the strength that I see inside of you. You do not quite yet comprehend who you will be when this journey ends. The wheel of time continued to turn and so the years went by you would come every so often into my orbit, never staying for very long.
I am older, weaker now, frail and injured weary of soul, and finally you have come. In the past I have helped a little never much because you always fled. I wanted us to be so more, but it wasn't meant to be. I am your guardian, helper, teacher, and even more important your friend. You are special to me, you came in my darkness and my stupor. You saw my aimless wandering in the gloom, you never ever knew just the impact you brought.
As I have learned as you have been gone, it was the spark of life you brought to me in my darkest hour. You rescued me. talked with me and healed me. It was you my friend that built me up again when the one before had plunged me into this deep and dank dark. You have built up my self-esteem, my confidence, and brought the sunshine back.
What can I do for you? I wish you would tell me true. I so envy you, but you are troubled and seem so alone, let me in I hate that you have had to roam so far from home to find a little bit of peace. I had promised you so long ago that I was your friend and I meant that till my end.
Do you really know and understand that you are truly my friend. A friend you see is more than just words, it is actions and deeds. When I tell you that I love you do you truly understand? Love is when you put another person needs above your own.
How can I relate to you what you truly mean? You don't even see your own self worth. I want you to stay, I want to teach you all I can, but I am not sure you understand. If you stay and learn the person you are will be changed for ever more. The more you learn the more knowledge you gain. You will learn in due time that wisdom comes from Age plus Knowledge. The path you seek is here indeed..
You chased my rainy days away filled my heart and my life full of sunshine. I have a hope an inner peace that wasn't there until I met you. Your friendship changed my life. An inner peace, an a thirst to learn. From the time I met you I have increased my knowledge 100 fold.
If you are sincere, but be aware, what I have to teach took me a lifetime to learn, you must be willing to put in the time. It will not be easy, you will want to quit, might hate me some but in the end you will have learned. I hope you can understand what all I have planned, and I hope you will stay this time.
Before now other things came in between, I don't want to let it happen again. Our time is finally at hand, what you choose to do with it is up to you. Take your time and decide, please don't turn and hide. I want this to be just for you and me.
You are once again here and I love you my friend. Remember it is till the end.
I hope you are my Best Friend
As always my hopes and dreams are with you,
Uncle B
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
Leave it alone!
I know that I have talked to you extensively in 2012 about the past, but something has been in my spirit today and God has been telling me that I needed to put this back out there for someone. I am not sure who you are, but I am positive that God wants you to remember this simple fact.
So tonight I am going to talk to you about the past. See there is nothing you can do to change the past, what has happened cannot be changed no matter what you wish. I have to tell you that when you look back over your life, you are going to see so many things that you will want to change. But the secret here is that you can do nothing but change whatever it is inside of you that made you act that way. It was your actions, choices, deeds and who you hung around that influenced those actions that caused those mistakes. If you truly want to learn and change then you have to self reflect, you have to do some deep soul searching. The answer is right there inside of you. You have to change yourself, change your environment, change those that you associate with. In other words, if you are truly serious about change you need to start over, reinvent yourself. Take those pains and aches of the past and turn them around. Know that you can, you are the only one that has that power. Remember looking backwards is 20/20, you can see everything when you look backwards. Here is something that you might not realize, but the past starts right now, this very moment. You have to understand that everything up until this exact moment is your past. For we do not know what the next minute will bring, but because we are here and looking at this the present and the past must at some point must be one.
You cannot step forward, move into a new relationship or try anything new if you are carrying the baggage of your past with you. It will weigh you down and throw more stumbling blocks in your way at every turn. You have to accept the past and accept that you can do nothing about it. You may be able to learn from it and change the way you act if a similar situation comes your way. However, I have to tell you if you keep picking up that baggage no one is going to be able to handle all that you bring to the table. It will overwhelm those you are trying to start something with. So it is very important to forgive yourself and others so that you have the closure you need so that you can move on. Once you have closure you can drop those bags from the past that are weighing you down so heavily. Forgiveness is for you and you alone. Surrender your self-pity, and regain your self-esteem because you achieve balance by seeking knowledge. Truth and harmony are right there for you to pick up and take forward with you, but if your hands are full with your baggage of the past how can you pick up anything else?
You have to remember yesterday is dead and gone. You must deal with it as you do with all the things from your past, you must walk this walk alone. Remember that God is just a call away and will help take that burden off of your shoulders, but you have to be 100 percent honest with yourself and Him. Keep in mind that tomorrow has yet to begin and anticipate the journeys that may come to you on the new dawn. Adventure awaits the souls that are free, and who live in the moment. Time has no meaning now as the divine descends upon you. In the morning all things seem possible, there are no mistakes it is a clean new day. The slate has been cleansed and you get to start all over again. God will never ever give you more than you can handle. All the turmoil, adversity, hurt, and loss only serve to make you stronger. They give you hope for a new day and new start. Give thanks for the adversity that comes to you, because the next time you will have the knowledge and the strength to withstand it.
No one ever promised that life was easy. Who told you that you would only have a garden full of roses? If you had just roses the thorns would be so sharp that you wouldn't be able to enjoy them at all. But your garden is full of flowers, weeds, bees and so many other things. It is the variety and the spice that gives us adventure and life. Make the most of every day because they are a gift from God.
As always my hopes and dreams are with you,
Uncle B
So tonight I am going to talk to you about the past. See there is nothing you can do to change the past, what has happened cannot be changed no matter what you wish. I have to tell you that when you look back over your life, you are going to see so many things that you will want to change. But the secret here is that you can do nothing but change whatever it is inside of you that made you act that way. It was your actions, choices, deeds and who you hung around that influenced those actions that caused those mistakes. If you truly want to learn and change then you have to self reflect, you have to do some deep soul searching. The answer is right there inside of you. You have to change yourself, change your environment, change those that you associate with. In other words, if you are truly serious about change you need to start over, reinvent yourself. Take those pains and aches of the past and turn them around. Know that you can, you are the only one that has that power. Remember looking backwards is 20/20, you can see everything when you look backwards. Here is something that you might not realize, but the past starts right now, this very moment. You have to understand that everything up until this exact moment is your past. For we do not know what the next minute will bring, but because we are here and looking at this the present and the past must at some point must be one.
You cannot step forward, move into a new relationship or try anything new if you are carrying the baggage of your past with you. It will weigh you down and throw more stumbling blocks in your way at every turn. You have to accept the past and accept that you can do nothing about it. You may be able to learn from it and change the way you act if a similar situation comes your way. However, I have to tell you if you keep picking up that baggage no one is going to be able to handle all that you bring to the table. It will overwhelm those you are trying to start something with. So it is very important to forgive yourself and others so that you have the closure you need so that you can move on. Once you have closure you can drop those bags from the past that are weighing you down so heavily. Forgiveness is for you and you alone. Surrender your self-pity, and regain your self-esteem because you achieve balance by seeking knowledge. Truth and harmony are right there for you to pick up and take forward with you, but if your hands are full with your baggage of the past how can you pick up anything else?
You have to remember yesterday is dead and gone. You must deal with it as you do with all the things from your past, you must walk this walk alone. Remember that God is just a call away and will help take that burden off of your shoulders, but you have to be 100 percent honest with yourself and Him. Keep in mind that tomorrow has yet to begin and anticipate the journeys that may come to you on the new dawn. Adventure awaits the souls that are free, and who live in the moment. Time has no meaning now as the divine descends upon you. In the morning all things seem possible, there are no mistakes it is a clean new day. The slate has been cleansed and you get to start all over again. God will never ever give you more than you can handle. All the turmoil, adversity, hurt, and loss only serve to make you stronger. They give you hope for a new day and new start. Give thanks for the adversity that comes to you, because the next time you will have the knowledge and the strength to withstand it.
No one ever promised that life was easy. Who told you that you would only have a garden full of roses? If you had just roses the thorns would be so sharp that you wouldn't be able to enjoy them at all. But your garden is full of flowers, weeds, bees and so many other things. It is the variety and the spice that gives us adventure and life. Make the most of every day because they are a gift from God.
As always my hopes and dreams are with you,
Uncle B
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